wow its been quite a while

well my my blog is called free time, fun in the fun.... now there is some free time but not alot of fun in the sun now that it is winter and its snowy. booooo!! i dont like snow but i do like what it means. Festive hollidays are on there way!!!! yay. and i absolutly can not wait! because my latest intrest is photography and i got a camera (canon reble t3), im still trying to figure it all out, but its been a blast. and ive been snapin photos right and left. my latest project ist to try and make a video slide show of a LOT of photos and make it almost look like film. im not sure how to do it yet but i will. i just got the photos and it was really fun because it was of my friend derek's visit from craig alaska for swiming at state. any way it was really fun and i cant wait to show the finished project once its all done. that is if i can figure it out :D

the choice is made

today i made one of the most difficult decisons ive had to make. ive been restiling with this for weeks now but i have decided not to go to hair school because ultimently i was going for the wrong reasons. i was going because everyone else wanted me to go, and i was excited about it jus because it was a change in life. now im so close to it and i had to do some soul searching and really figure out what was right for me. i went back and forth on this no much and even talked with the owner of the school about it and she told me that what ever i did, i couldnt do it jus to please someone eles because ultimently that would make me unhappy. i thought that was really good insight. but i still was super stressed out about it because i really and trully didnt know what i wanted. i feel like such a typical girl becaues this has put me on such an emotional rollercoaster. and im imbarrasssed because everyone already knew for like the past six months that this is what i was going to do and now im like oh jus kidding, it kind of makes me look like a flake, especially sense i have no other plan and i only have one more week at my current job. but my heart wasnt 100% in it and goin in only part of the way jus isnt good enough for me and i feel like i wouldnt be able to make it all the way through the schooling feeling like that. then i would have put in all the time and money with nothing to show for it. so thats why i have decided not go go to hair school. im still very stressed out tho because i have to figure out whats next. please keep me in you prayers and know that this was a very hard choice for me

9/11

Its so hard to believe that it has been 10 years sense that morning that my dad came into me and emily's bed room and told us that there had been a tragedy. being in 4th grade i didnt really know what that ment, but i knew that it had to be something that was of grave importance beause he seemed to be very up set and when i got up stairs the tv was on wich was never aloud on a school morning. it was then i learned that an air plane had crashed into one of the world traid senters and then another hit the other twin tower. i remember that was a traumatizing thing too see at a young age and people jumping out of the buildings to their death is even hard for adults to see. even now thinking about it still makes my skin crawl. when we saw the towers fall i remember that i kept asking my mom if that was real and i could tell by her tears that it was.

All day at school the news was on in the 5th grade class room and tons of us piled in the door way to try and see what was going on. which we later found out about the pentagon crash and the flight 93 crash in pennsylvaina. almost no school work was done that day and we all did alot of praying.

When Presidant George W. Bush declared war on terrorism i distinctly remember my teacher telling us, "Some of you boys will gorw up and fight in this war one day, and maybe even some of you girls"
to me growing up felt so very far away i didnt think that the war would still be going on. but here we are 10 years later and yes some of my friends have fought in this war and even still some are joining the cause.

I am so thankful for all our sevice men and women, all that they do to protect our freedom. some even paying the ultimate price. freedom is not free. it is bought with heavy price!!! and i think that our military needs to be treated better. thank you millitary for all your courage and bravery to get the job done.

No Darryl Worley i have not forgotten. ill never forget that day. but some people need to be reminded of it. reminded how they felt when they realized that our nation was under attack, killing our inosent people. a war was inevitable. i belive that we are in the right place. id much rather us fight a war over there than here on our land.

Eye on the Prize

Ive been sticking very strictly to my new "life style" i guess if thats what you want to call it. i dont really want to say its a diet becaues sooner or later diets fizzle out and i want to stay strong with this, its been good ive seen some small improvements and ive lost a half inch of my waist!! ive been getting stronger and have found that i really like to cook. trying my very best not to eat anything prossesed. which has been really good for my stomach!!! i feel good and acompished every day. its like a chain reaction, if you make small changes here and there you will start to make more and more!

Any way i say all this to tell you an awful fear i have. its that time of year that people eat and eat and eat until they they can no longer keep their pants buttoned in fear that they might take someones eye out from it busting off and then they try to eat alittle more!! thats right, its the alaska state fair. where everythingis not only bad for you but its been deep fried 5 times checked buy the health department to see if it will give you cardiac arest and if it doesnt they deep frie it again and rolll it in salt. then you wake up the next morning 500lbs.   now i will say that im not one of thoes people that stuff them selves full jus cuz theres food every where but i am worried that if i eat that walking heart attack food that i will get off track of my goals and "life choice" or what ever this is. i do want to go to the fair cuz i love looking at all the venues and having a good time with my friends but im going to have to be really careful of what i chose to eat and keep my eye on the prize which im not entierly sure what that is... lol i guess its to "get fit"at least thats what i keep saying.

Work It Out

my new goal is to get fit. i at first said i want to lose 20 pounds but i then realized that when i was at that goal weight i had no muscle and i didnt eat righ and slept a ton cuz i had no energy. so my goal now is to "get fit" or "tone up". i dont think that im fat i jus dont want to get there which is why im doing something about in now. im changing my eating habits, what im consuming and when and im switching up my work outs. unfortunatly this means that im gunna have to stop my baskin robins challenge but thats ok i will eventualy at some point. i do hope to lose some weight but it probably wont be as much as i initially wanted to but thats alright. i will tell you this much that dancing with the stars cardio work out DVD is not easy it its a good alternative to runnine, which i hate!!
the next time i pass a mirro im gunna say, "heres lookin at you kid" cuz theres about to be some major change to this apperance

its dinner time! - yzma

ok so proud of my self today. i made dinner for my family (and amos was over too). well my mom helped me out but i was telling her what to do cuz she didnt know exactily what we were having.
i made grilled Teriyaki chicken, and a vegtibal sort of stir fri of potatos, green beans, peas, and sunflower seeds. that for desert i mad what is called peanut heaven that had apple juices, banana, whole raspberries, peaches, peach juices, strawberry yogurt and peanut butter all blended together after that was chilled i then put kiwi slices and chocolate shavings on top. all around super tasty and really healthy :) oh anf get this the only thing i uesd a recipe for was the teriyaki sause. everything else i jus was totally winging
also i had to go to the store for alot of the ingredeants and i was really impressed with my self at what great deals i got and i walked out of there only spening $18 for making dinner for 9.

the reason why i wanted to make dinner tomight was because my stomach is really sencitive and also ive been putting on some unwanted weight. and my mom makes alot of mexican and italian wich isnt such a good idea for my stomach if you knew all of my allergies and intolorances... of i thot hey i want to make something that is smart healty choice to eat and wont hurt my stomach and my mom was all good with not having to come up with something for dinner so i took on the project and it was a succes!! pretty much everyone loved it but amos doesnt like vegtables he only ate the potato part and he was scketchy about the nuty heaven jonathan refused to even try the vegtables at all. but everyone else who tried them loved them and had at least 2 helpings. its a good thing i made a few extra chicken brests because they were all snatched up too. nuttyheaven was a hit too

Catch Up

Its been a while sense ive writen anything. ive been fairly busy the past week or so. hanging out with Jordan and Derek, while Derek was in town. He lives in Craig Alaska which is south east. I took alot of my own advice and explored Anchorage going to places i have never been or rarely ever go to with the boys jus getting out of my box of comfort, witch is the goal. went to the saturday market and checked out all the art and crafty things. it was really making me miss art. i havnt really painted or sketched or even sewn hardly at all for about... i guess around a year or so. except i did shorten the straps on a tank top the other day but that doesnt count as sewing. but id like to get back into all my creativity cuz i feel jus a little deprived. im not amazing or anything but its a fun hobby.
hobbies keep people sane.
seriously