its been a long road

you know i was thinking tday about how i have come such a very long way frome where i was about 3 years ago. July 3, 2008 i woke up and my stomach hurt so bad. i didnt know what was wrong and i was in so much pain that i felt nauseous. it was the day of my moms birthday party so i tried to put a happy face on but i was really hurting. about a week or two went by and my stomach was still hurting really bad. i couldnt eat or sleep and i had lost a bunch of weight. which is when my mom took me to the doctor. come to find out i had a really agressive stomach infection. the good news was that there was an antibiotic for it, the bad news was that my body rejected the medication and it atually made me worse. i quite literally thought that i was dying. around the same time i was getting ready to compeat in a beauty pageant and i was super ultra stressed which i now know played a role into my stomach issues. my stomach wasnt getting any better after my infection had gotten taken care of so thats when i went to a specialest but he couldnt find the cause of pain. i had an endoscopy and all that he could tell me was that my stomach was inflamed. he thought that i was too stressed out whith my senior year coming up and this pageant and trying to figure out what i was gunna do about collage. which was partly true. as it turned out i was too sick to do my pageant ant i was compleatly heart broken that i couldnt compeat, but it would have been a desaster if i had tried to go on with it. i couldnt function, all i could do was watch movies to keep my mind occupied so that i wouldnt think about the pain so much. school started and my friends convinced me to go out for volleyball. i loved it but i also hated it. i got hurt so much, all the time. i felt like a wimp. i was really thin though and couldnt hardly eat still, so you do the math. right at the end of volleyball season i took another nose dive and couldnt go to school for about a month and a half. i jus lay in bed and watched movies. so my mom took me to the alternitave medicine clinic. which they told me i had tons of fool allergies. why did no one think of that sooner??? and i was again over stressed about school. i learned what foods i could eat and what ones i should stry to say away from and ones that i should never have. after that things started to look on the up and up. i had some allery elimination treatments. i was able to go back to school and get caut up and graduate.

here i am 3 years after got it and there has been lots of ups and downs. i have a weak stomach, not that i throw up easily, its that i feel lik im always walking a tite rope and one false move and im back to square one. had about 5 stomach infections which is not a common thing! and they cant tell he how i contracted them. i watch what i eat and make sure my stress load is under control. when i got these "stomach issues", as i call them, i thought my life was over. but i have learned so much from this. life is short and you never know what heading tward you down the road, so live in the moment and take every oportunity to live life to its fullest. yes, i still have some bad days but its nothing like it used to be. and if i had to go through all that again i would be able to handle it so much better. it was a huge wake up call to take a look at my life and see what really matters. i dont wish that on anyone but i do sort of wish that more people would go through big life changes so that they would get that same wake up call, "hey life isnt all roses!! figure out what you think is really imortant in life and ditch what ever doesnt matter! cuz you only live once make the most of it!!!"

im actually greatful that i had to go through that because i have i different perspective on life than most, and im thankful for what i have. every day is special and i hope that i never forget that. im getting ready to open a new chaper in life where im leaving my job and goin full time to hair school and im very excited i jus hope that i can keep my blancing act going and make sure that my stomach issues dont spirl out of control again. if you think about it keep me in your paryers. thanks