the choice is made

today i made one of the most difficult decisons ive had to make. ive been restiling with this for weeks now but i have decided not to go to hair school because ultimently i was going for the wrong reasons. i was going because everyone else wanted me to go, and i was excited about it jus because it was a change in life. now im so close to it and i had to do some soul searching and really figure out what was right for me. i went back and forth on this no much and even talked with the owner of the school about it and she told me that what ever i did, i couldnt do it jus to please someone eles because ultimently that would make me unhappy. i thought that was really good insight. but i still was super stressed out about it because i really and trully didnt know what i wanted. i feel like such a typical girl becaues this has put me on such an emotional rollercoaster. and im imbarrasssed because everyone already knew for like the past six months that this is what i was going to do and now im like oh jus kidding, it kind of makes me look like a flake, especially sense i have no other plan and i only have one more week at my current job. but my heart wasnt 100% in it and goin in only part of the way jus isnt good enough for me and i feel like i wouldnt be able to make it all the way through the schooling feeling like that. then i would have put in all the time and money with nothing to show for it. so thats why i have decided not go go to hair school. im still very stressed out tho because i have to figure out whats next. please keep me in you prayers and know that this was a very hard choice for me